modestic

 

Issue: anything

 

Once upon a time there was a fanzine called modestic. It was quite a low key thing that people seemed to quite like, and in some cases, even to really enjoy. But one day in June, the editor threw his toys out of his pram, declaring that every word he was writing was dull, boring, tired cliché. So he rested the zine with a promise of a new issue in September, once he was refreshed. After all, September wasn’t so far away…

 

(And in amongst the cliché, there was always the urge to drop song titles, lyrics, or paraphrases of them, into the text…)

 

September came and went, with no sign of a new issue. There was confusion within the editor’s mind, also. The new issue was to be something different, a break from what came before. So should it carry on as modestic, or should a new zine be created.

 

Grunggae. [Sic]. Cod Times. A Little White Lie. In Dreams. Chuff. Strewth!

 

These were all considered, at one time or another amongst others that I either can’t remember or failed to note down, as an alternative to modestic.

 

But, in the end… Well. You can see the decision.

 

Yesterday, being Halloween as I type, I was at the Institute of Contemporary Arts having seen the Graham Coxon exhibition (which ranges from shockingly bad to terrifically great) and I was in the shop, looking at the zines there – I was just about to buy Smoke – when I came upon an idea.

 

Theme.


Every issue should have a theme. That was where I was going wrong. A magazine has a theme, a direction. In trying to make modestic all things to everyone, it was losing its direction. But by the same token, I don’t want to constrain creativity.

 

So this is the deal.  Every issue is based around a word. Articles will either be about that word, or use that word as a springboard to go off on a tangent, or maybe even simply mention the word somewhere within the text. The important thing is that the word is used as inspiration, not as a constraint.

 

For example, if I gave as the word of the issue as “cheese”, you could take it literally and go on about your favourite cheeses. You could talk about naff cheesy pop. You could talk of the cheesiest moments in film or TV. The only limitation is your mind…

 

As this is the first of the new modestic, and most of it was written before I had my brainwave, the word of this issue is “anything”.  For next issue’s word, see the the bit at the end…

 

Peel

 

I was all set to start off this issue of modestic with a piece commenting about how the essence of Boris Johnson's (well, Simon Heffer's, to be accurate) piece on people expressing grief for people they've never even met was, comments and inaccuracies re Liverpool & Hillsborough aside, an article with many good points.

 

However, as I type this, I find myself welling up with tears and emotion after hearing that someone I've never met has died. To make such comments on the Spectator piece would be rather hypocritical, really.

 

I never met John Peel, yet I feel incredibly sad at his passing. After the news was announced, and he'd read out an obituary, Steve Wright played Teenage Kicks, and it was all I could do to contain myself and stop myself bursting into tears. (And, later in the evening when listening to the NewsBeat special, the tears took full flow.)

 

We do feel sadness for the deaths of people we have never met, and it is only right and proper. In this case, though, although I never knew John he had an effect on my life and the music I listen to.

 

I remember him, on the Friday of the Glastonbury weekend in 1993, pondering on how exactly he should pronounce the title of the next single he was going to play. Was it to be pronounced as the word "Punk" or spelled out "P-U-N-K."...? The record was, of course, P.U.N.K. Girl by Heavenly, and it was the first time I'd ever heard them. I loved the single. So, the next week when I saw it in Tower

Sounds in Swindon, I picked it up, remembering Peel's introduction, and bought it. A whole new world opened up in front of me.

 

It saddening to know that there will be no more Peel shows on Radio 1, and that somewhere on a shelf, already recorded, is the last ever Peel Session.

 

So maybe grieving for someone you never met isn't a bad thing.

 

Coffee Shops: The Creeping Menace

 

The other day I was flicking through a book in the lesser of Reading’s two branches of Waterstones, when I came to something curious within. It was a coffee stain. Smearing down the page, an ugly streak of brown yukkiness. Like someone had splurged a turd down the page. You don’t expect to see such a thing. But then, I suppose with the growing infestation of Coffee Shops in corners of bookshops, it is something that will happen time and time again.

 

Someone, somewhere, sometime must have thought it was a good idea. How can we get more people into our bookshop and make them stay longer? I know; let’s rip out some shelving, reduce our stock level, and stick in a Coffee Shop. GAH!

 

Slowly, and surely, the Coffee Shop in a book shop phenomenon spread until shop after shop had a corner devoted to some Coffee Franchise or other. Starbuck’s here, Costa’s there. Coffee Shops everywhere. Go on. Think about it. How many books shops do you frequent? And of those how many have Coffee Shops? Most of them, I expect.

 

Now I have nothing against Coffee Shops as such. A Coffee Shop is a perfectly

fine place to stop off and have a relax in for a break in a lengthy shopping trip, but book shops ain’t the place for them. They take up space where other books would be. Probably the more obscure, niche market stuff. You can’t imagine that when deciding which stock to remove/put in store that they’d go for the Top Ten or the Harry Potters or the Dan fecking Brown. Nah.

 

People read books in book shops. Fact of life. Nothing wrong with that. I do it. You can imagine how the stain got in that book. Someone deciding whether or not to purchase did so over a cup of coffee which got split on the book. Rather than do the honourable thing and purchase the now damaged (by their own hand) book, they replace it on the shelf, possibly taking an undamaged copy and then buying that. Thus, at some point someone will pick up the book, not bother to flick through it, and then when they get home and start reading they will eventually get to the page with the great streak of coffee on it.

 

Thinking of it, the only proper book shop around these parts (and I discount the Friar Street shop as that’s a specialised one) that doesn’t have a Coffee Shop is the greater of the two Waterstone’s branches; the one in Broad Street. A wonderfully open space, with an upstairs with a curved parabola which you can lean on and peruse books, and gaze down at the people below and on the stairs. A place that seems friendly and inviting. And not a coffee stain in sight.

 

Post Script; it now appears that coffee shops are infecting banks. I mean, WHY? Who wants to be in a bank long enough to drink a coffee? Not me, that’s for fucking sure…

 

Scandal

 

by Anthony Malone

 

Yes, it was I - Aubrey Munge - who was sensationally expelled from the Olympics after being found creasing the sheets with a twenty-two year old Norweigian figure-skater and whose room was subsequently found to be an Aladdin’s Cave for the drugs authorities. You want the truth? I wanted it. I wanted the scandal, I wanted to blow the whole thing wide open and see all the judges gasping and dropping their prissy little clipboards. I would have stood on that podium and proudly ignored the boos of the scandalised crowd, the torn Union Jacks, the spittle and the bottles. Except, of course, things didn't quite work out that way and before I knew what was happening I was unheroically barred from competing, bundled onto an Easyjet and handed over to the tender loving care of the British Press. The more sympathetic editorials hoped my shaming would be the making of me, that it would turn me around but it didn‘t quite happen that way. Sure, I survived - just - but something happened a few months after I’d returned home in disgrace, that changed things round quite a bit. The Aubrey Munge doping scandal was just the start of it.

 

I had a bit of a thing for Agnetha from the moment I clapped eyes on her, sitting on the coach frowning at what her wizened old witch of a trainer was telling her - drugs propaganda no doubt and from her air of ambivalence I had her pegged as a closet abstainer from the word go. My own trainer - Sauvignon - had flatly refused to accompany me to the Olympics on the grounds that I never listened to anything he said and that I was a bloody idiot anyway, which I think speaks volumes about frustrated athletes these days. The girl had beautiful blonde hair, an hourglass figure and a nose like a Verbia ski-jump. Just my type. By the time I’d found my room and unpacked I knew I was going to have a good Games.   

 

Well to cut a long and thoroughly depraved story short it turned out my suspicions were correct and Agnetha was all too interested in a little excitement and adventure in her life, particularly if it rubbed her trainer, Merlot, up the wrong way. So before we drew the sheets back, we cleared away the free vacuum-packed syringes and complimentary packs of EPO which had been generously provided by the Olympic Committee - cracked open a few bottles of Malvern Springs and hopped into bed. I felt pretty good at that point, comfortably clear-headed and translucently articulate. We hurled abuse at the coverage of the games on TV: the marathon runners who now went coast-to-coast in under three hours, the weight-lifters who raising tonnage that would test an industrial crane, high-jumpers fosbury-flopping over blocks of flats. It's bizarre watching these things when you're clean, you know - there's a weird sense of unreality to it all. Anyway, Agnetha and I soon moved on from award-winning sports commentary and were prepping for seconds out, round two when events took a subtle turn for the worse. There was a fumble of keys at the door and Aubrey's world went nova.

 

I thought it was the cleaner at first, I was that close to slinging a pillow at whoever it was and drop-kicking their mop and bucket, which shows you how on the ball I was back then. I never twigged Agnetha might have some Nordic weight-lifter on the go as well so when a seven foot perma-tanned Titan came round the corner into the bedroom blocking out the sun with his comic book torso I fairly froze. An instant later and I’m happy to say I was out that first-floor window and legging it across the quad with my pants round my ankles but of course you could say he had a slight, molecular advantage on me. There was the sound of collapsing masonry behind me, an unearthly roaring and then that supercharged homunculus was after me like a collapsing chimney stack. Now, I don’t know whether you’ve ever been torn limb from limb by a genetically-enhanced, neo-human whose idea of pumping iron is to crush cars with his bare hands but take it from me the thing to do is to evade capture until other, more dashing, chaps step in and restrain what Mother Nature has long since abdicated responsibility for. I was scrambling on the gravel of the quad, my leg barely a foot away from his gnashing jaws when the Dutch swimming team leapt on the enraged Odin but not before that damn Viking somehow got hold of a javelin and sent it hurtling at half the speed of sound past my ear. That javelin is now embedded six feet deep in the granite wall of the Olympic Stadium. I hid in the arboretum.

 

I kept my fingers crossed that that would be the end of it, but oh no - not so. There was a lull and then the whole thing exploded in my face. See, Vlad the Impaler in his fantastic goodwill towards his fellow sportsmen went straight to the organisers and made a formal complaint about yours truly. When he twigged they'd much rather hush the whole thing up for the reputation of the games he decided to take things into his own trash-compacting hands and paid me a visit while I was out, presumably to tie my legs in a bow around my neck. I was having a Herbal Tea in the ref when I overhead this and the writing on the wall suddenly became pretty damn clear: if I didn’t get to my room before he did and make it look like I’d been doing drugs 24/7 I was done for. Except I was too late. What he found in my room caused the biggest Olympic upset for ten years.

 

I was hauled up before the Olympic Committee and told to explain myself. They then told me they were going to announce to the world’s press that a search of my room had revealed...nothing. I took this on the chin and came clean: I had never touched performance-enhancing drugs in my life. Not so much as an antihistamine. Sorry, boys. The grey men, clutching at their pacemakers and trying to find a positive spin on this explosive soundbite advised me to give a press conference, read out a short prepared statement saying I had been abstaining alone and then relinquish my position in the Glaxo-Wellcome sponsored Olympic British sprinting team. I was on a plane home within twenty-four hours. After that I was persona non grata.

 

Bad business, all that. Affected me quite badly. I descended into a sobriety-fuelled hell of total recall. I was embarrassingly coherent at dinner parties, made piquant observations that eviscerated the opinions of my hosts. I spooked women with intense sermons on the virtues of clean-living. I unnerved men by refusing beer. All this might have been the end of me, washed up in Guildford with a four by four and a career in accountancy, except for something strange that happened to me. It was the night of the storms, the night Cornwall nearly got sluiced away and I was sitting forlornly on my sofa watching the weather reports, thanking my lucky stars I lived in a top-floor flat and wondering whether my athletics career really had come to an end when there was an authoritative knock at my door. I wasn’t sure I wanted to let anyone in; my flat was spotless but I tip-toed to the door and looked through the spyhole. She was standing there. I opened the door caught completely off guard while she looked me up and down disapprovingly. "My name is Merlot" she said, a damp cigarette drooping from her hand. "I've come to help you."

 

***

 

The smaller the woman, in my opinion, the more compact the dynamite so when you hear that Helga von Le Tissier Merlot was barely over five feet tall you’ll understand why within a week of meeting her I had more drugs floating around my system than an All-Night Chemist. Seemed like Agnetha, wracked with guilt, had pleaded with Merlot to take me on. Not that I didn’t put up a fight mind; I had years of a particularly contorted mindset to unravel first. She invited herself in, sat back on the sofa as if she bloody owned the place and looked at me with distaste. “You’re looking well,” she growled. I shifted uncomfortably and held her gaze. “What’s it to you?” I parried. And so it began.

 

Her basic thesis was that my life would be a hell of a lot better if I took a combination of the most sophisticated performance-enhancing drugs available to man. "As you know," she said holding her cigarette in the air so that it dropped ash all over my nice stripped floorboards "I do not advocate the taking of drugs for recreational purposes. That way lies shipwreck. Sport, on the other hand, has been immeasurably improved since drugs have been used. Sport was boring. Sport was banal. There never were going to be any more records broken. Maybe the odd millisecond shaved off here and there but never any real quantum leaps forward. Now that we accept the use of stimulants as de rigeur the Guinness Book of Records is a weekly publication. Imagine one of your fans,” she rasped, wagging a bony finger in my direction - “that little boy out there, in his bedroom, looking up to you, only to find you’d never done drugs. How do you think that boy would feel?” I had to admit, I’d never thought of it like that. 

 

There was an awful lot of that. She came back and kept on at me until I got so hacked off with her I gave in. And thus my unlikely resurrection began. I was immediately packed off to weekly AA - Abstainers Anonymous - meetings at which I sat with all the other bright-eyed and bushy-tailed abstainers and eventually plucked up the courage to say “Hi I’m Aubrey and I’ve never touched drugs in my life.” My first night on EPO was a descent into the jaws of hell. I sobbed. I railed against what I was leaving behind. I felt so square, as if I was leaving behind an edgy, hipper lifestyle of secret abstinence and selling out for a way of life I neither related to nor wanted. They all said hot turkey would be the worst - the nurses and the Doctors, but with each injection, each chemically enriched meal it got a little easier. Merlot, wreathed in tobacco smoke, put together a cocktail of drugs to build up muscle, enhance lung capacity, steady blood pressure and boost stamina but cautioned against merely resigning myself to the medication. Instead, she said, I should embrace it. That was all hunky-dory, I thought and if it helps me win medals all the better but I’m going to do it on my own terms. So, after a few weeks when I could see the obvious improvements in my physique and I had shattered my own personal bests I started to skip the odd session of self-medication, neck the odd bottle of Perrier on the sly. Merlot couldn’t understand it. The changes should have been more dramatic. Eventually, the balloon went up when she found a bottle of Malvern Springs in my kit bag. When I asked her what was it to her I found out just how compact that dynamite was. Major bust-up. I walked.

 

I don’t know where I went, I just know it was raining. Athletics for me, was finished. Either way I looked at it I just couldn’t hack it. I must have been dithering along completely in a world of my own because I didn’t hear them coming. There was about six of them I think; their faces had that weird, unlived-in look - sheenless and unblemished and while I had once felt perfectly at home with such folk this time they had baseball bats and knives. They politely requested my wallet - at knifepoint - and gleefully announced that my cash would go towards some of their more expensive non-GM foods. I wasn’t physically intimidated by them, but instead struck dumb by a sudden insight. I saw from the other side what I had been advocating as a cool, underground way of life was in fact something far more squalid. I saw it all then, the non-performance enhanced were always late for work, far less productive than those of us who could sprint a mile in under a minute. They were a drag on the economy, they were part of the problem, not the solution. My God, I thought, I’d been living in cloud cuckoo land. I’d come within an Ace of losing everything. For all of you who think clean-living is where it’s at, I'm here with a wrecked career of abject failure that says different.

 

Things change. Two years on and I have just about salvaged my reputation. I have a legitimate place on the Olympic Team and ICI have agreed to sponsor my doping regime in return for wearing their logo. Physically, you wouldn’t recognise me. But here’s one final amusing little anecdote, something that happened at the press conference announcing the members of the British sprint team. I was merrily fielding questions, sitting at the end of the row on the stage when a hand went up from the audience, a ten-year old boy who looked at me as if I was Moses coming down off Mount Sinai and said he had a question for me. "What would you say” he squeaked “if your friends asked you to not do drugs with them?" I smiled. Must have been a plant. A puff of smoke at the side of the stage told me Merlot had suddenly tuned assiduously in, presumably to see if her protégé was on message. She needn’t have worried. I’d lived it. It was easy. It was easy to take a ride on that wagon, to teetotal it just once and think you don’t have a problem. What would I say? I drew myself up, bulged my pin-pricked muscles, looked that boy in the eye and gave him the best goddamn piece of advice you’ll ever hear.

 

"Son. Just say no.”

 

 

You Should All Be Murdered

 

The people who should be cleansed from the Earth to make it a better place to live...

 

#1 - Mick Hucknall

 

Why?

 

The evidence is plain to see and can be summed up in these words; Stars. A New Flame. For Your Babies. Fairground. Money's Too Tight To Mention. I could go on, but I believe you get the picture. Any one or two of these songs in question, and there would be a possibility that Hucknall should get 17 years hard labour instead of execution, but the sheer amount of execrable tunes that he has foisted on us over the years, and which is still continuing today, can lead to only one verdict; death!

 

Why Not?

 

Er, there must be a reason. But I'll be jiggled if I can think of it…

 

Method of Murder?

 

Hucknall should be put in a locked room, and be forced to listen to his worst song, For Your Babies, on repeat for 24 hours. During this time, he must stand still, motionless. Every time he moves, an electric shock will pass through his body. Once the 24 hours is up, the room will slowly fill with acid at the rate of one centimetre an hour, which will eat through his flesh and bones slowly, causing ever more pain as it rises. Knowing that there is no escape, he will have to choose between trying to stay alive for as long as possible with the hope that a last minute rescue may occur, or plunging his whole body into the acid, killing him outright.

 

Verdict?

 

Death. What else could it have been?

 

Preparing For Emergencies

 

By Ken Shinn

 

Isn’t that new “Preparing For Emergencies” public information film (or PIF) a load of old crap? Frankly, Tony, I’m insulted.

 

Remember the good old days of “Protect And Survive? (And for those eternal Sociology students who forever slag “Thatch” in its name, please remember that the whole “plan” – including the PIFs – was cooked up under Jim Callaghan’s prime ministership in the mid-1970s.) Maybe those weren’t soothing – but why should they be? Nuclear war is bloody scary!

 

So, yeah, we deserved those skin-crawling, nerve-tingling synth chords: we deserved Patrick Allen’s grimly authoritative narration. A Barratt Home wasn’t going to do shit to save you from impending atomic holocaust – the best you could hope for was continued existence after the Bomb. Only that reassuring final synth chord offered the tiniest shred of hope. And we didn’t get atomic war.

 

What do we have now? Twee, happy-sappy music, and a voiceover that may as well conclude with Chris Morris-type “everything is fine” assurances in its sheer complacency and condescension.

 

I’ll re-iterate:

 

Scary PIF. Warned against nuclear war. We didn’t get nuclear war.

 

Touchy-feely PIF. Warns against terrorist attacks. I’m staying away from the window as I write…

 

A Rant About Pop Music

 

Do you know which current chart hit gets on my goat more than any other at the moment? It’s that one by Bryan McFadden; Real to Me. It’s not enough that he’s just trying to be the new Robbie Williams (who in turn was being the new George Michael, anyway), but he has to go and slag off his previous group in the process. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m no fan of Pondlife at all, but some people are. The whole point of his single is that his life in Pondlife was meaningless, worthless and quite, quite terrible. Thus, by extension, the music was the same, and thus the fans who put him where he is now are. And yes, I know Freedom explored a similar avenue, but it did it with much more style and didn’t blatantly slag off the fans; “I was every hungry school girl’s pride and joy, and I guess that was enough for me”, George, and late Robbie, sang. But not McFadden, oh no,  just as his single is out he conveniently said that boybands are dead and the way forward are “rock bands” like Busted and McFly.


Hang on. Rock bands? Nah, pop bands, more like.

 

And no, there is clearly nothing wrong with pop bands. Personally, I adore Obviously, by McFly; it’s a glorious example of a great pop tune, it’s fast, catchy, hummable, and it gives you a grin when you hear it. It doesn’t pretend to be anything else than what it is; a slice of pop. And it works well. But rock…? Nah. McFly, and Busted, are simply Bros for a new generation. That is all.

 

Yeah, you may argue that they are manufactured and all that cal, but really, who cares? I’d much rather have a song like Obviously than any of the turgid self written pap by, for example, Keane. How they got to be so popular, I’ll never work it out.

 

This snobbery against pop is largely due to the often trotted out cliché that “they don’t write their own songs”. So fucking what…? How many songs did Elvis write? Frank Sinatra? Bing Crosby? There are loads of bands and singers that are great at playing and singing, but are not so hot at writing the songs, Similarly, there are lots of hugely talented songwriters that could never have a hit themselves. So why shouldn’t they work together? Why does it matter that a singer hasn’t written the words he sings?

 

It shouldn’t. But in the eyes of many, it does.

 

The Zagreus Challenge

 

By Chris Arnsby

 

“Four Doctors One Destiny...” it says on the back of Big Finish’s Doctor Who audio play Zagreus. I don't know anything about the play except that it's Big Finish's contribution to Doctor Who's 40th anniversary, it's three CDs long, and I've heard nothing good about it. Instead people say things like," I listened to it over three nights and it nearly shredded my brains." Well, as the result of a drunken boast down a pub I'm going to listen to it in one go. It won't be the first time that drink has made me do something stupid but at least this time I won't end up being banned from the National Gallery.

 

There are some ground rules:

 

1) Once I've started an episode I can't stop it.

2) I can't rewind so if I miss something that's it.

3) I can take breaks in between episodes.

4) I have to listen to it right to the end in one go.

 

Time:

 

BEFORE I START.

 

Out of curiosity I check the Big Finish website, there isn't a lot of information there except that should I wish to buy Zagreus it would cost me £15.99, oh and it's their 50th Doctor Who release. The CD box isn't any more forthcoming. Zagreus is written by Alan Barnes and Gary Russell. It stars Peter Davison, Colin Baker, Sylvester McCoy and Paul McGann (there's also a picture of Jon Pertwee inside the case so I'm guessing he'll make an appearance from beyond the grave). The cast list reveals (hooray) John Leeson and K9, Lalla Ward as Romana and Louise Jameson as Leela. It also lists (boo) Bonnie Langford as Goldilocks, Conrad Westermass as The Cat and Sophie Aldred as Captain Duck. Oh dear. It's all starting to sound a bit wacky.

 

 

I should probably also add that my previous Big Finish listening credentials are; The Sirens of Time (the first one), Wetworks (the first Dalek story they did), something or other of the Daleks (I'll check the title later, it had Colin Baker in), half of Spare Parts (Big Finish's Cybermen origin story, apparently one of their best). I've also got a copy of Boom Bang A Bang (a Christmas comedy story) which I've never listened to but bought because I got to meet Graham Garden. It sat around on the floor for a couple of weeks and then I trod on it. I'm not sure where it is now.

 

Right, CD 1 goes into the computer. There's a picture of the TARDIS behind it.

 

00:01 There's a 'previously on Doctor Who' at the start. Zagreus is a mythical figure. There's anti-time involved, which is bad. Charley (the Doctor's assistant?) is a gateway to anti-time because of some sort of paradox. There are some ex-Gallifreyan's. Bloody hell. I can't keep typing this quickly. There's anti-time on Gallifrey. Charley wants to kill herself to stop anti-time from, erm, mixing with real time or something. The Doctor (Paul McGann) loves Charley! The Doctor's going to make a heroic sacrifice. Bang. Charley has ended up in the TARDIS after it somehow survived the anti-time explosion. The Doctor has become Zagreus!

 

07:01 After the opening music The Doctor/Zagreus is chasing Charley round the TARDIS. He hit's her. Time for a cigarette and a coffee (my computer is in the same room as the kettle so I'm not cheating here).

 

15:00 Charley seems to have fallen into a flashback with her mother. There's a lot of reference to Alice in Wonderland. Oh, it's all getting silly. Charley's mum has taken her to see Doctor Zagreus and has turned into a rabbit. The Doctor/Zagreus is wandering round the TARDIS. He hears fragments of Jon Pertwee dialogue which has had some sort of sound processing applied to it and is barely understandable.

 

18:51 Nicholas Courteny is playing the voice of Doctor Zagreus. There's more talk of anti-time.

 

23:00 More conversation between McGann and Pertwee (who is still almost inaudible). Pertwee wants McGann to find a book in the TARDIS library. Oh, it's Alice in Wonderland again, I'm beginning to suspect that there's some sort of literary referencing going on. There's also a lot of 'let's have the characters talk about what they can see' dialogue which sounds a bit forced.

 

26:11 Charley is pouting about the Doctor hitting her. She's beginning to get on my nerves.

 

26:41 The Doctor's going down a secret passage in the TARDIS; more Alice in Wonderland referencing I suppose. I wish he'd stop talking to Pertwee.

 

31:15 Nicholas Courtney has explained to Charley that the flashbacks are places in the TARDIS that they can visit in the hope of finding a cure for the Doctor.

 

34:40 Nicholas Courtney is playing the voice of the TARDIS? More bloody Alice in Wonderland references. Not a lot has happened considering 35 minutes have passed.

 

39:00 During a conversation between the Doctor and Zagreus there's a lot of weird background noise behind the voices. Like interference on a radio. I'm not sure if it's meant to be there or my speakers are knackered?

 

41:32 Mark Strickson (Turlough) has turned up playing Captain Macdonnell in one of the 'flashbacks'. The weird noises have stopped so I guess it was meant to be on the CD.

 

42:00 Oh God. The Doctor's wandering the TARDIS looking for Charley again and flipping between himself and Zagreus. Hasn't this all happened before? The distorted Pertwee samples are back as well, they're no more understandable than before.

 

45:00 Charley has just said," heavens!" I don't think I like her.

 

46:58 Mark Strickson has been joined by Sarah Sutton (Nyssa) who is playing Miss Foster. While I can understand that Big Finish want to cram ex-Who actors

into this story it's a little distracting because every time someone new speaks I have to look at the cast list to see who they are. It's the audio equivalent of seeing a familiar face pop up on TV and spending five minutes going," ooh, look its thingy, you know the bloke from that film!"

 

50:49 I hope Part One doesn't go on for much longer. I'm starting to need the toilet.

 

53:17 Now Peter Davison has turned up playing a character who's name I didn't catch. I think he's a scientist. There was another actor in the scene, I think it was Nicola Bryant (Peri).

 

55:12 I've discovered I can't type while smoking.

 

55:59 More Alice in Wonderland references. The Doctor has been locked in a box by a talking cat (in the TARDIS, it's gone a bit funny after the anti-time explosion apparently). Do you see? Cat. Box. It's a hilarious Schrodingers Cat parody. Now they're explaining the Schroedingers cat theory for people who haven't heard of it.

 

61:12 Ah, Nicola Bryant is playing Doctor Stone.

 

61:40 I really need the toilet now.

 

62:35 There's been no explanation of the latest flashback yet. Peter Davison appears to be playing a scientific vicar at a military research establishment.

They're all drinking tea which isn't helping the state of my bladder, I may end up having to wee in the sink.

 

65:07 In an effort to take my mind off things I've looked at my previous Big Finish CDs. The Colin Baker Dalek story was called The Apocalypse Element. Also,

Wetworks was actually called The Genocide Machine (I think Wetworks was a working title). I also found Bang-Bang-A-Boom. Apart from a nasty crack in the cover it seems ok. Only two CDs. I wish I was listening to that.

 

69:17 Christ! Will this episode never end. Paul McGann is talking to the cat again.

 

72:56 The background interference noises are back.

 

73:19 The Peter Davison flashback is still going on. Exciting events at a military research base during the war. Someone is a traitor but I haven't been listening properly and I've rather lost track of things. I think Miss Foster is the traitor. There's going to be an explosion (please let it be the end of episode

cliffhanger).

 

75:30 Oh no it's Paul McGann and the cat again.

 

76:08 Back at the base the explosion is building. I can't hold on much longer. How much can you fit onto one CD?

 

78:37 The end of part one came just in time. I've really rather lost track of things. Peter Davisons character was involved in the development of some sort of machine that could be used as a bomb. It nearly exploded but didn't. There was also some talk about 'creators' I'm not sure if this will turn out to be significant or not.

 

Time to swap CDs. Ah, CD 1 was called Wonderland. Hope that's an end to the Alice in Wonderland stuff, it would be nice if they used their own ideas instead of cribbing someone else's. CD 2 is called Heartland which was also the title of an obscure ZX Spectrum game from Odin Computer graphics. The previously mentioned picture of Jon Pertwee is behind CD 2 in the case, nicely spoiling some of the surprise for people who want to check the discs aren't damaged before they listen to them.

 

Part Two

 

00:11 This part has started with the Colin Baker theme music, I'll bet he turns up.

 

01:12 Bonnie Langford is playing Cassandra (must have missed that when I looked at the cast list) and Maggie Staples is The Great Mother.

 

02:06 They're on Gallifrey.

 

03:00 Hang on Colin Baker's turned up already, I've missed his characters name. Nicola Bryant is also here playing Ouida (who has an American accent).

 

04:37 Lot's of portentous talk about Rassilon and Omega which I wasn't really listening to. Charley and Nicholas Courtney are back in the TARDIS with no explanation of what that 'flashback' was all about.

 

06:01 Oh hang on. The events at the military base apparently really happened and now 'we know what happened to them," wish I'd been listening to them properly now. All the characters in the flashback are created from the TARDIS memory banks which explains why they sound like the cast of Doctor Who.

 

07:21 Nicola Bryant's American accent doesn't seem as good as the one she used for Peri.

 

08:48 Colin Baker's character is involved against a plot against Rassilon. Must pay attention this time.

 

10:00 Cigarette time! Don't expect much typing for a while.

 

19:14 Oh, Nicola Bryant has eaten Bonnie Langford. There's an image that will stick in my mind.

 

19:21 Paul McGann is still in the TARDIS which he has discovered is also Zagreus?

 

20:38 Meanwhile on Gallifrey, which is the location of the latest flashback, Colin Baker and Nicola Bryant appear to be playing the Vampires from the Tom Baker story State of Decay. Everyone sees Charley as Rassilon and there's some unfunny dialogue from Charley as she tries to play up to the image of the famous Time Lord.

 

24:36 We are back at the dawn of Time Lord society. Everyone is astonished to learn about Rassilon's experiments into regeneration. Well everyone except the audience, are we meant to be astonished by stuff we already know?

 

26:00 Lots of technobabble about Rassilon making all life in the universe match the Gallifreyan template. He also seems to have made anti-time or something.

It's like listening to a dull episode of Star Trek: Voyager.

 

30:01 Blah, blah, blah Gallifreyan History.

 

32:10 The Vampires aren't evil, just misunderstood. Apparently they were nice before Rassilon hunted them down and tried to exterminate them.

 

36:52 Everyone's blown up except Charley who appears to have escaped through a mirror (groan). The TARDIS has betrayed her, or something.

 

38:02 Crap, it's gone wacky. Charley's talking to a six foot mouse in battle armour, oh wait it's her reflection in a mirror. There's a battle going on, bet it's against giant cats or something.

 

40:21 Paul McGann is blowing up bits of the TARDIS. Who is evil and also Zagreus. Whatever that means.

 

42:15 Sophie Aldred is playing a duck. Ahh, Captain Duck. Do you see? They're fighting in an amusement park. Against people. Oh stop my aching sides! There's talk about 'protecting the animator' I smell an approaching zany Walt Disney parody.

 

44:23 Paul McGann is still blowing up bits of the TARDIS and is now fighting a Jabberwock. I think the plot's run out of steam.

 

45:18 Bonnie Langford is back as Goldilocks along with a fairy called Tinkle (who makes a tinkling noise). This is shit.

 

50:25 I'm watching the seconds of my life tick away on the clock.

 

51:22 The Animator is in cryogenic suspension. Just like Walt Disney! Except that that's an urban myth.

 

52:41 Sylvester McCoy is playing Walt Disney. Or 'Uncle Winky' to give him the scripts fantastic (sarcasm) name. The amusement park is called Winky Wonderland. Winkey! Like cock! Which is what this whole script is.

 

54:20 Charley seems to find Uncle WInky charming. Rather than creepy as you'd expect what with his paedophile sounding name. Winky Wonderland is built on the ruins of Gallifrey. In the future.

 

55:30 Ha ha ha! Sylvester McCoy just used a quote from one of his stories. It's the bestest thing ever.

 

56:40 Uncle Winky is missing the children. He 'needs' them. This is deeply creepy. I hope no one hears me listening to this.

 

61:06 Uncle Winky is still going on about children. Now, he has a bad heart and is dying. From laughter to tears in ten minutes. Surely this script was written by Dennis Potter?

 

62:04 The universe is ending and the anti-time people are breaking through. I don't care. Ah, it was a flashback. Charley and the Doctor are now reunited and are explaining the plot (which we already know) to each other. I can have a cigarette in six minutes.

 

64:00 The TARDIS has revealed it is Zagreus. We already know this. Why is the script repeating itself?

 

64:56 Charley is whining on about the Doctor hitting her. Death where is thy sting?

 

66:01 Rassilon has turned up and is taking over the TARDIS. The TARDIS hates the Doctor. I'm not too fond of him myself right now.

 

67:51 Fantastic. The TARDIS is trying to cast Charley into space. It's done it. Bet she's not dead. Still it's about the only thing any character has done that

I've engaged with.

 

69:32 Romana and K9 have turned up. Cigarette time. Smokey smokey.

 

71:02 Tom Baker's assistant Leela has turned up.

 

74:09 I knew Charley wouldn't be dead. Fuck, Uncle Winky's here too. He says he likes being hugged. They're in a wasteland. Peter Davison's character is also here. Bet Colin turns up soon. Yup. There's lots of hilarious jokes about the Wasteland looking like Wales so it would be funny if it turned out to be the Death Zone on Gallifrey (from The Five Doctors) which was filmed in Wales.

 

76:02 It's the Death Zone. The writers of this script, Alan Barnes and Gary Russell remember, are funnier than Spike Milligan and the Monty Python team rolled into one. If this was my copy of Zagreus I'd remix part two with a knife.

 

CD 2 has dribbled to a halt. I'm going out to buy more cigarettes before I listen to part three.

 

Part Three

 

Right, I'm back from the Off Licence with cigarettes and beer (to dull the pain) and some cashew nuts. So, Part Three will be set in the Death Zone. I hope there will be some more self-referential jokes, maybe someone will say something is 'as easy as Pi' –which is a line from the Five Doctors- or there will be a joke about a musical staircase (based on the scene from The Five Doctors where the Master walked down some stairs and the background music played a note for each step). Let's see shall we?

 

CD 3 is in the computer. There was a picture of The Dark Tower (where Rassilon is buried) behind it.

 

00:15 Where's my bottle opener?

 

01:01 Romana, K9 and Leela have transmatted into Rassilon's tomb.

 

01:43 I can't get the cashew nuts open.

 

02:01 Done it. Leela's been possed by Rassilon. They're going into the Matrix.

 

02:40 Colin made a funny. When he listed monsters to be found in the Death Zone he listed rubbish ones from Doctor Who (Mandrills and Hypnotrons) instead of Daleks or Cybermen.

 

05:58 Another cracking funny. Talking about monsters in the Death Zone they said, 'Daleks and Yeti and Quarks. Oh my.' Just like the line in The Wizard of

Oz.

 

10:26 Romana, K9 and Leela have gone through a mirror. Wonder where that idea came from?

 

13:02 More comedy from Colin, Peter, etc. They're fighting a Jaberwock for some reason. Now they're all talking in rhyme and that has allowed them to control it. Obviously.

 

15:31 Rassilon wants Romana to resign so that Zagreus can become President of Gallifrey. Leela has been possessed by Rassilon and has cut off K9s head.

 

18:16 Hooray, Sylvester said,'it's as easy as, oh never mind'.

 

20:02 It's not the Death Zone. It's the Matrix. Romana has met Charley and everyone else. While trying to explain everything to Romana Charley got to do a joke about how confusing the plot has been so far. I'm not sure that the script should be pointing out how poor it is.

 

25:03 The Doctor is back talking to the TARDIS. Apparently it's jealous because the Doctor loves Charley more than it.

 

31:10 Rassilon has melted the bit of the TARDIs that isn't Zagreus (still with me) down to 'slag and clinker', which is almost another line from Doctor Who.

 

33:54 Colin has just described Sylvester's clothes as 'a multi-coloured nightmare', which is clever because Colin's Doctor wore brightly coloured clothes.

 

34:38 Alan Barnes and Gary Russell can't write dialogue for Leela.

 

37:08 Oh gosh, Peter Davison, Colin Baker and Sylvester McCoy are not the characters they are playing but actually aspects of the Doctor. Of course, it's so obvious.

 

40:32 Have I missed something? Paul McGann's Doctor is making a dagger from the remains of the TARDIS now. He's also Zagreus again. It's very dramatic.

 

44:03 The TARDIS has shot Leela. Bet she's not dead.

 

45:03 Something about Time Lord history again.

 

46:43 Rassilon used the Eye of Harmony to trap a race that would have evolved to be more powerful than the Time Lords. He wants Zagreus to kill them. I'm going to open another beer.

 

49:37 I think I missed something significant. When the Doctor made his heroic sacrifice Rassilon used his power to save him and make him Zagreus.

 

50:51 Rassilon is using the dagger to kill all the Doctors. Bet they're not dead.

 

51:31 Leela's not dead yet but she is bleeding to death. Yeah right.

 

52:18 Romana's using a previously unmentioned piece of technobabble to kill the Zagreus TARDIS. It's melted in the crucible. It may be dead.

 

53.56 Ha ha. As Leela dies sad music plays in the background. Then Romana says 'it's only a flesh wound', and the sad music winds down.

 

55:09 The Doctor wants Charley to kill him. She thinks that he wouldn't say this if he didn't love him. It's so sad. She's stabbed him. Bet he's not dead. Rassilon seems shocked by this, I thought he wanted the Doctor to die.

 

56:38 All the Doctors are in the afterlife. Bet they find a way back. They make a joke about what the critics would say about his the events leading to his death, 'overlong', 'derivative', 'melodramatic'. For some reason they don't use the word 'shit'.

 

58:02 Now the Doctor's sad that Charley hates him. He's really dying. No really. He is. This time. Dead. Stone cold. Phew, he's been saved by some technobabble about becoming Zagreus. Which will be bad. For a while. I guess.

 

61:40 Other stuff about Time Lords and the web of time.

 

62:53 I'm drinking beer on an empty stomach. I may be drunk. Everyone's talking about Zagreus and timelines. I wonder if the Doctor will stop being Zagreus?

 

64:03 The Doctor/Zagreus will become ruler of the universe. Mmmm, beer and cigarettes.

 

64:47 The Doctor/Zagreus is going to kill Rassilon and throw him to the people from the other universe thingy.

 

66:13 Rassilon's dead, so's the Doctor again. He's become Zagreus again with stupid feedback on his voice.

 

67:47 The TARDIS is back from the dead and nice again. Being thrown into the crucible cured it, as it would. It's fixing the Doctor with a bottle labelled 'drink me'.

 

68:41 Techobabble is curing the Doctor. With plinky, plunky wacky background music. It's funny because it makes no sense.

 

70:12 Everything's back to normal now. But The Doctor's going into the anti-time universe and Charley's cross because he won't take her. He's got Zagreus in him. Charley and the Doctor are having a tiff. Listen to the billing and cooing of the two lovebirds. I need the toilet again. Damn you beer.

 

75:48 Charley and Leela are having a conversation. Leela's dialogue is still rubbish.

 

76:12 The Doctor won't return from the anti-time universe because of Zagreus's energy or something. I bet he does.

 

80:15 I think I've mistimed this episode.

 

81:27 Leela's got a rubbish monologue about how great the Doctor was.

 

82:03 Charley snuck into the TARDIS via the back door. Now she's in the anti-time universe with the Doctor.

 

84:13 Now Charley's got a crap monologue.

 

84:54 The remixed music at the end sounds like someone programmed a synthesiser and then walked away. Is that what David Arnold got a credit on the CD case for?

 

Oh it's over. A google search for 'Zagreus' reveals that www.zagreus.com is a website for gay men and pagans to learn the Dionysian Mysteries. Dionysus.

Mmmm beer.

 

Rocko’s Modern Life

 

By Ken Shinn

 

“Rocko’s Modern Life” is one of the best cartoons ever. Forget such pale pretenders as “The Simpsons” (ever more tedious) or “Ren & Stimpy” (grossness isn’t automatically hilarious), this story of a nerves-ridden wallaby, his bullock best friend Heff, his crap-eating dog Spunky, and a huge supporting cast is not to be missed.

 

Constantly at loggerheads with his boss Ed Bighead (a malevolent frog with his own truly dysfunctional family – a bored, sex-starved wife and an animator son who despises them both and parodies them as a pair of violent and much-abused idiots in his hit show “The Fatheads”), both saved from sin and encouraged in feats of heroism by the real-life superhero Really Really Big Man, and surrounded by grotesques even in animation terms (hook-handed lioness, anyone?), Rocko is a true Everywallaby de nos jours.

 

See him crawl down Heff’s cavernous gullet to remove a chicken bone from the inside in “Heff Goes To Heck”! Thrill as he sits through the trailer for little kids’ cuddly toys’ The Poots’ new movie – as they commandeer a World War Two German submarine in…”Das Poot”! And stare into the Nipples Of Destiny with Really Really Big Man! Plus MANY MORE…

 

This marvellous show isn’t on terrestrial in the UK right now. Get satellite/cable/digital, scour the video shops, rob the animators’ houses, but just SEE THIS SERIES. Oh cobblers!

 

Reviews Section

 

Frank Black Francis

 

FBF is an odd beast. It’s a double CD which consists of the earliest recordings of Pixies classics, and the most recent. The difference between them is quite startling.

 

The first disc has 15 demo versions of Pixies songs on it, which were recorded the day before the Pixies went into the studio to record the songs for their demo tape, the Purple Tape (8 tracks of which were later taken directly from this tape to form Come on Pilgrim). So what we have here is demos of demos… All we have here, is Charles and a guitar, no band. These demos of demos were taped as a reference point for the producer of the Purple Tape so he’d know what to expect. The tracks here are very rough and raw, with the occasional note or piece of instruction as to what’s going on at a particular point. It has such sheer power and vibrancy to it that you forget that it is merely demos you’re listening to, even when he exclaims things like “I’m gonna sing the bass player’s part” on I’m Amazed”. It’s also a good thing that at long last there is an official version of Boom Chickaboom out on CD…

 

The second disc contains new versions of old Pixies songs that Charles recorded with Two Pale Boys. Upon hearing the first track, Caribou, I was thinking “yeah, this works”, as that’s a fairly good reworking. Not as great as the original, but still good. But then as the CD continued, it became apparent that this was the high point. Nimrod’s Son has all the vemon sucked out of it, Monkey is just flaccid and uninspiring with no life to it at all, and by the time you get to the UTTER WANK that is the 15 minute version of Planet of Sound you’ve just about lost the will to live.

 

My advice: buy Frank Black Francis. Cherish the Demo CD as it will bring you nothing but joy, and use the Rework CD as a coaster.

 

(Now, when will we get Keeping in Time, Silhouette and the other two tracks I can’t remember the names of on CD…?)

 

Gubbinry and Malarkey

 

www.smokelondon.com - can you call Smoke a fanzine? I don’t know. In anycase it is a truly great read and you should all buy a copy. Make sure you say where you heard about it…

 

Lost in Time – is the latest Dr Who DVD, and features all the odd orphaned episdes, those disjointed oddments that managed to survive the purge of destruction in the Seventies. With 18 episodes from 12 stories, there’s bound to be plenty on here you’ll love. It features amongst others Daleks, Cybermen, Yetis and the greatest of all; Professor Zaroff! Nothing in the world should stop you from buying it…

 

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